Tuesday, May 19, 2015


I've already started my OC hormones (Kelnor).  Much better thus far thanthe evil Reclipsen that I was on for Daughter's transfer, but they still screw me up a bit.

I've been on them 2.5 weeks and gained 5 pounds, get nauseated really easily, and get really cranky.  Also, weird things make me want to cry... like being frustrated about not being able to get Mat a new phone because something was screwed up with our account. 

But for this transfer I started the OC much earlier.  I only have to be on it by the 10th of the month prior to transfer (so June 10th), but I have to wait until the first full day of my period to start.  Last time, for the failed March transfer, I waited as long as possible and ended up starting a day late (2/11/15).  Dr K said it was ok, but my crazy brain tells me it worked when you were on OC for over a month before the transfer in 2013... so do that again!!!.

So I've already started.  Kelnor is so much better than Reclipsen, but it's still hormones that my body doesn't need and isn't used to. 

It's all for baby!  :)

Friday, May 15, 2015

It's all in God's hands...

I know that the lives of our precious snowflakes are in God's hands.  That comforts me.

But I can't help thinking oh, I need to do this completely trivial thing to make this transfer work.  Or the last time worked, but this didn't... I have to make sure not to do anything differently....

Examples include-
  • Not wanting to stop at Missouri Star Quilt Shop on the way (I didn't the first time, and we had Daughter!)
  • wanting to stay in the same room at the Holiday Inn (that's just bizarre, I know)
  • wanting to stay at the Holiday Inn just because of proximity when Dr K said up to an hour drive after transfer should be fine.
  • Maybe if I make a new quilt for the babies we lost last time and snuggle in it during my post-transfer bed rest, rather than bringing the Liberty quilt as I have done for the previous transfers?  After all, the time it worked Liberty was one of the most recent loss, so maybe using it again, when we have a more recent loss, won't work?  
  • I should make a quilt out of the Fabric from Pappy's Quilt shop for the babies lost... that would help!
  • What if I eat less protein?  (we ate more protein in March because the place we rented had a grill.  Dr K assured us it didn't matter)
  • I need to eat more pizza... I ate a lot of pizza the first transfer.
  • We shouldn't hike the day before transfer (Dr K assured me that our little 4 mile hike was OK)
  • What if we'd finished that hie at the sinks?  We were so close...
  • I can't buy pee sticks until after the transfer
  • The time that worked my bladder was too full... maybe if I hadn't relieved myself a bit (done per dr K's instructions)?
I'm pretty positive that we will stop at Missouri Star... pretty positive we will rent a cabin type place (we found one cheaper than the Holiday Inn about 30 minutes away)... pretty positive I won't be able to make a new quilt before we go... but there are a few I'm going to stick with.

I'm not going to buy pee sticks in advance...  Won't hike so much the day before transfer...  Will probably finish the hike at the Sinks...

I know that God is in control.  But these things will make me feel better. 

Infertility makes me crazy.

Saturday, May 2, 2015

Visit with my grandparents

And I gave them this disappearing pinwheel quilt
Daughter loved the fountain in their lobby

Friday, May 1, 2015

21 months!

I can't believe she'll be two in three months!

  • She loves being outside. 
  • Enjoys flouncing or flying with her skirts at church (when Mat and I pick her up by the hands)
  • Enjoys the zoo
  • Not great at listening...
  • Has many words... the latest is "Bless you" 
  • Going through sleep issues.  Sleeping a lot less.
  • Likes to climb into cars and trucks in the yard
  • Really likes her slides now.  Gets super excited when she gets to the end!
  • Sometimes won't nap...
  • Starting to like "making ice" when I do it I put a little water in her ice tray.
  • Really enjoys "helping" in the kitchen, in the yard, vacuuming...

Monday, April 20, 2015

We're ready for a baby!

Daughters latest word is...


Yep, we're ready!

We're saving up to go back in July.  My cousin works for a hotel chain and he's looking into whether or not he can get us a discount.  So that might save us some cash!

Plus, my parents have a bunch of stuff in their garage that they're going to let us sell on Craigslist.  Should get us about $1000!  Thanks mom and dad!

We're on course to have plenty saved by then.  I'm still working and that really helps.  We're planning on me not working anymore once the new baby is here.

Mat and I have decided to transfer 3.  However God chooses to bless us, we'll be thrilled!

But the second transfer is a bit scary to think about.  If this doesn't work, we have one more shot- that's it.  I completely understand.  NEDC is most concerned about giving these frozen humans a chance at life thawed out- if someone with a bad womb wanted to keep trying and trying, it wouldn't be giving them a fair chance.

But my womb is good, right?  Yes... from all three of my transfers (one IVF and two FET through NEDC) each has resulted in pregnancy.  The ones that didn't last were most likely due to embryo quality.  Even though the embryos looked great this time, most chemical pregnancies are caused by abnormal chromosomes in the embryo.

So, yes Daughter, Baby baby baby! :)

Thursday, April 16, 2015

Conference call with Dr Keenan

My call was this morning. Dr K expressed sympathies and asked if I had any questions. 

Boy did we!  These are some of the answers...

I shouldn't spend more than an hour in the car after transfer. In 11/2012 we stayed in a hotel right in Farragut, so it was only 10 minutes or so in the car. For the March transfer we stayed about 45 minutes away and I sat in the car while Mat got lunch. Won't be going that again!

Bed rest isn't really required, but his recommendation is a mixture of laying flat, reclining, and sitting. Just taking it easy. In 2012, I did total bed rest both day of and day after transfer. Next time I will do the same. 

The 4 mile uphill hike the day before was ok because I was still plenty hydrated we want to hike the same trail this tmr (it was awesome) but we'll probably do it two days before the transfer and more low key hiking the day before. 

The US wasn't an issue. If I would lke, I could get a print out of the lining US and have dr K look at it. 

I have to speak with the pharm about the progesterone expiration date, but I'm pretty sure it won't be salvageable. 

Wednesday, April 15, 2015

Spring has sprung :)

Daughter loves to "help" with yard work

Last night she "helped" transplant a tree. It took 5 times longer having her help, but she's so stinking cute!