I'm going to start a new OC

I emailed Lynda (IVF nurse at NEDC)  yesterday with a couple questions.  The first being if I could take a break from and/or switch my OC.  I've been getting more and more nauseated, moody, and bloated.  She told me to go ahead and stop and then to fill Necon 1/50 and start that with my next period. 

Hopefully it will be better than others I've tried!  But she called it into a pharm in MN (I live in ND, about 2 hours from that pharm) that I had asked her to call my RX into for an infection that I had prior to the last transfer.  I had them call it into that pharm because we would be driving right by on our way to TN.  She must have put it in my file, because she called the new RX there.  So I have another email into her asking her to call it into a local pharm.  

The second question was if the RX's called into Apothecary last time included extra Valium and Albuterol (both for the transfer) and it does.  So I can just call and place a new order!  But first I have to plan a time with my cousin who lives just over the border because ND doesn't allow any pharmacies that aren't over 50% pharmacist owned... so it saves us hundreds to just get it delivered to somewhere in MN.

Whew. 

Now here's an adorable pic of Daughter  and niece...

Meds...

I've already started my OC hormones (Kelnor).  Much better thus far thanthe evil Reclipsen that I was on for Daughter's transfer, but they still screw me up a bit.

I've been on them 2.5 weeks and gained 5 pounds, get nauseated really easily, and get really cranky.  Also, weird things make me want to cry... like being frustrated about not being able to get Mat a new phone because something was screwed up with our account. 

But for this transfer I started the OC much earlier.  I only have to be on it by the 10th of the month prior to transfer (so June 10th), but I have to wait until the first full day of my period to start.  Last time, for the failed March transfer, I waited as long as possible and ended up starting a day late (2/11/15).  Dr K said it was ok, but my crazy brain tells me it worked when you were on OC for over a month before the transfer in 2013... so do that again!!!.

So I've already started.  Kelnor is so much better than Reclipsen, but it's still hormones that my body doesn't need and isn't used to. 

It's all for baby!  :)

It's all in God's hands...

I know that the lives of our precious snowflakes are in God's hands.  That comforts me.

But I can't help thinking oh, I need to do this completely trivial thing to make this transfer work.  Or the last time worked, but this didn't... I have to make sure not to do anything differently....

Examples include-

• Not wanting to stop at Missouri Star Quilt Shop on the way (I didn't the first time, and we had Daughter!)
• wanting to stay in the same room at the Holiday Inn (that's just bizarre, I know)
• wanting to stay at the Holiday Inn just because of proximity when Dr K said up to an hour drive after transfer should be fine.
• Maybe if I make a new quilt for the babies we lost last time and snuggle in it during my post-transfer bed rest, rather than bringing the Liberty quilt as I have done for the previous transfers?  After all, the time it worked Liberty was one of the most recent loss, so maybe using it again, when we have a more recent loss, won't work?  
• I should make a quilt out of the Fabric from Pappy's Quilt shop for the babies lost... that would help!
• What if I eat less protein?  (we ate more protein in March because the place we rented had a grill.  Dr K assured us it didn't matter)
• I need to eat more pizza... I ate a lot of pizza the first transfer.
• We shouldn't hike the day before transfer (Dr K assured me that our little 4 mile hike was OK)
• What if we'd finished that hie at the sinks?  We were so close...
• I can't buy pee sticks until after the transfer
• The time that worked my bladder was too full... maybe if I hadn't relieved myself a bit (done per dr K's instructions)?

I'm pretty positive that we will stop at Missouri Star... pretty positive we will rent a cabin type place (we found one cheaper than the Holiday Inn about 30 minutes away)... pretty positive I won't be able to make a new quilt before we go... but there are a few I'm going to stick with.

I'm not going to buy pee sticks in advance...  Won't hike so much the day before transfer...  Will probably finish the hike at the Sinks...

I know that God is in control.  But these things will make me feel better. 

Infertility makes me crazy.

Visit with my grandparents

And I gave them this disappearing pinwheel quilt

Daughter loved the fountain in their lobby

21 months!

I can't believe she'll be two in three months!

• She loves being outside. 
• Enjoys flouncing or flying with her skirts at church (when Mat and I pick her up by the hands)
• Enjoys the zoo
• Not great at listening...
• Has many words... the latest is "Bless you" 
• Going through sleep issues.  Sleeping a lot less.
• Likes to climb into cars and trucks in the yard
• Really likes her slides now.  Gets super excited when she gets to the end!
• Sometimes won't nap...
• Starting to like "making ice" when I do it I put a little water in her ice tray.
• Really enjoys "helping" in the kitchen, in the yard, vacuuming...