When I first took my last negative home pregnancy test, I bawled. I didn't sleep well that night and then I was up at 3am researching Korean adoption.
I felt that God might be leading us that way. We have Koreans who we are very close with and it was my first instinct at 3am. Must be God's hand at work, right?
We contacted Korea through the agency who works with our state. We were turned down for medical reasons because of my hemi-paresis.
That was a blow- but "in all things God works got the good of those who love Him" (Romans 8:28)
Now we're praying for guidance about whether to do domestic infant adoption or try foster to adopt.
I'm worried that many birth mothers would feel the same as Korea. I need to cast my worries on God.
We're taking some time to figure out what we want to do. We're going to meet with our pastor and pray a lot more.
On another note, we've had several people volunteer to be surrogates. It is truly heartwarming to know that people love us so much. That is not a way we want to go. We don't believe that's in God's plans for building our family or that it's Biblically sound.