Then my parents will be out of town for half of our trip and can't watch Mookie (they can still watch Daughter and Mookie for the other half- just not the full week we had been planning). Now we found out that Mat's parents will be out of town through the Saturday before the transfer (we had been planning on driving to their place on Friday and taking off on Saturday morning. Leaving Daughter there). They said they would change their travel arrangements....
Is God trying to tell us something?
Should we not do the November transfer?
That would be additional cost as we would have to renew our background checks (in ND home studies are good for 2 years but background checks must be renewed every year). But that way we'd have extra time to save up after the other big expenses. Plus if we get pregnant the baby would be more than 3 years younger than Daughter... We were trying for 2-3 years age difference.
Should we take Daughter with us?
That would likely be more stressful. Driving with her is not easy... We would probably have to fly, and that would stress me out more. I hate flying.
Should we make it a shorter trip?
That might have to be the way we go... But it just seems such a shame to sit in the car for over 20 hours to have two days at the destination.
Should we give up on EA altogether?
I really don't want this to be God's will. I really want to have genetic siblings for Daughter. I really don't want her to be an only child....
Infertility sucks.
God, please guide us!
Sometimes the hardest times are a test from God. Just keep praying and keep asking for His guidance. Let us know if we can help-I'm sure we could watch Daughter for part of the time if needed-My mom loves having more kids around. I've got time to take off work so I could be home with her. LOVE YOU!!!
ReplyDeleteThanks so much... I had several volunteers and I'm pretty sure it'll work out now. Love you!!!!
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ReplyDeleteWe are in the same boat. We have had things fall financially at one time too. Our savings is being drained quickly! And yet, we feel God is calling us to adopt more babies and give them a chance to be born. So, we are taking each step one at a time, trusting the Lord as we go. It is SO scary financially, but we also know God is faithful!
Prayers for you!
DeleteWe're probably doing the November cycle. I feel that God is leading us toward it... just different travel arrangements? maybe we'll see you there?
Interestingly, we are in a similar situation. Things are falling apart financially as my husband was terminated, a car died, etc. And we're on the waiting list for embryos through our clinic. (If they call, we'll have 5 days to pay the $3000 fee to adopt them or they go to the next person on the list.)
ReplyDeleteBut yet- we sense that God is in control. We are more aware than ever that our provision comes from the Lord- not ourselves, our jobs, our planning or our circumstances. Proverbs reminds us that a man may plan his course, but the Lord determines His path. Keep being faith day to day and trust that God will work everything out for the good of those who live Him.
You should update your blog more so I can follow your current story! ;)
DeleteYes, God is in control. For a while now Romans 8:28 has been my favorite verse, "In all things God works for the good of those who love him."
Prayers for you!
Praying for wisdom and discernment in this situation!
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